Do you ever wish you could make time hurry up?  So many times I wish I could see in the future and how things work out.  I am currently waiting on results of some medical testing on my six year old.  Both diagnoses would have major impacts on our lives, but one would actually mean a shortened life expectancy which scares me to death.  There was a time before the initial testing that I thought it could come back positive because it would explain so many things, but then I convinced myself that I was just looking for “trouble” where there was none.  And then the test came back “borderline” – inconclusive – so further testing had to be done.  The good news is that this testing cannot be inconclusive – it either is or it isn’t.  At least for the one condition.  The other one may be inaccurate but I guess I’ll deal with that when the time comes.  I just don’t know what to think now.  I’m scared both for a positive diagnosis of either condition, for the above stated reasons, but I’m also scared for a negative result because it means starting over and trying to figure out what is going on with him.

I suppose this doesn’t make much sense without the background info, but it’s a start.  We had this test done on Tuesday and will find out the results in 7-10 days – which translates to a week and a half to two weeks – a LONG time to wait!!  I just wish I knew now.  Or could make time go faster.  Or could forget about it.  You’d think with as busy and tired as I am that wouldn’t be hard, but I guess it doesn’t work like that! 

I’m going to close this post now and head to bed.  There’s a single parent group meeting tomorrow – my second week in a row of going.  I’m hoping it will be helpful talking with other single parents and getting support and ideas from them.  I look forward to it.  The kids do, too, so that’s good.  Alrighty, goodnight and thanks for reading!